to bucks broad and booze

listening to groove armada kickin beat

dreaming about the all the future to come

feeling the lines of my new tennis racket

considering my options

thinking about all the things that got me here

some bad some are good

contemplating singlehood

and to those people that have been and still matter in my life

thank you...

damn.. this is one of the reason I should go out on saturday night..

thinking got me melancholic all the time...

here's to bucks, broads, and boozes

Cheers....

Ganggu!!!

GANGGU!!!!!!!

why on earth you throw me that crap on my face

I don't think I need that kind of distraction

I really don't feel that emotion welcomed

For crying out loud.. leave me out of it

why?? why why why??

stop bugging me please.. because it just the way it is...

GANGGU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

take the stars out of your eyes because they entice me.

oh no....!

and then you walk with grace
from far away
I saw you among the old days
in between of the chattering of wind

your dress dancing around
playfully with the tropical air
with your smile shining like a beacon
calling my feet that moves towards you
even before I realize it..

I froze not because I am afraid..
but because I am mezmerized..
your smile among the fire works..
your eyes brighter than the stars..
but call me cheesy...

I just think you are amazing...

blogging, not recommended for stress people..

yeah yeah work has not been alrite.. therefore after looking all this data I have piling up on my wrecked so called office desk, I beginning to draw conslusion....

there is a lie

there is a white lie

and there is statistic.....

anywaysssssssss as ewes ewes ewes.. bablas angineeee... *brroooottt*

see blogging is not good for me because it makes me fart... hehehe

told u, i'm on stress mode

don't u think it's time to grow up?

FOR THE TWO PEOPLE THAT ACTUALLY HAD A THING FOR EACH OTHER!!!!

GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND GIVE MY EARS SOME BREAK!!! GEEZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!

ok venting out session is over now... time to go backt o real life...

Filosofi Kopi + Mendung

Hari yang mendung dan kelabu, hujan mengguyur membuat orang-orang basah kuyup bagai kucing yang kejebur....

kupikir akan jadi hari yang gak enak, bagai kopi yang di campur dengan air tuak

memang ada rasa tegang kayak pertama kalinya kerja magang

terlalu banyak pertanyaan tapi memang tidak bisa di ungkapkan

terlalu banyak kekesalan tapi memang lebih baik tidak di bahas

dua sisi yang sama tetapi berbeda, berbeda tapi sama.. koq aneh?

kalo satu bilang salah yang satu bilang benar, tapi siapa yang benar siapa yang salah

rasanya Tuhan tidak terlalu perduli.. hanya beda prinsip dan sama sama keras kepala...

kesal jelas... ingin banting handphone tapi sayang.. jadi kubiarkan kepala ini rasanya melayang

yah kupikir hari ini akan jadi hari yang buruk.. yah apa boleh buat memang jadi hari yang kayak beruk..

pasti gareng dan semar akan geleng-geleng melihat mukaku yang tertekuk bersaing dengan petruk

memang jadi hari buruk.. Petruk pun akan setuju, walaupun harus ku bawa-bawa dalam curhatanku yang gak jelas

yang sok menjaga ritme kayak puisi gak berkelas..

Agaknya Tuhan pun gerah ngeliat aku ngedumel gak karuan dan berkata

"Nih! baca buruan!"

serasa melemparkan buku ke jidatku yang sebenarnya harus ku bayar di Toko gunung agung..

rugi bandar kupikir.. memang kadang aku ini kikir

tapi ternyata hidup memang harus menampar diriku lagi... membuatku tersenyum geli dan menghela napas..

ada tertulis

Kopi yang anda minum hari ini:

'Kopi Tiwus'

artinya:

walau tak ada yang sempurna,

hidup ini indah begini adanya.

filosopi kopi dan pelajaran hidup paling murah yang pernah kubayar
karya Dewi Lestari a.k.a Dee

paling tidak lebih murah dari pada buku tentang samurai jepang yang hampir ku beli...

thank you Dee, thank you God..

dan buat orang yang sangat spesial.. kita berdua memang gak bakalan ngerti prinsip masing-masing.. dan pastinya akan tetap sama-sama nekat dengan tuntutan-tuntutan kita yang gila, juga lelucon-lelucon yang gak penting.

tapi lo musti tau kalau semua yang kita alami gak bakalan tergantikan oleh 20.000 perak atau milyar baik rupiah atau pun dollar amerika

lo tetep sahabat gue yang lebih hebat daripada gatot kaca blasteran sun go kong..

dan pastinya gak ada orang lain lagi yang gue harapkan selain lo untuk adu urat sampai kita keriput dan ompong

yah tentunya.. selain istri gue... yang belum ketemu sampe sekarang..

real life incoherent reflection

There are so many things i would have like to post in this thing, at the same time, what's the point anymore.. things has passed things will come passing by...

each day we experience something new, and more often than we like, we just doing the same stuff on a different day.. it feels like there is something you can change but u don't..

everyday, i asked myself, is there anything that i could have done better.. it seems the answer always points to yes... and actually.. i have to admit there are a lot of things that i could have done better..

regret is not really the point i suppose, to actually decide to do better or just merely different on some similar situation is hard enough.. and always by the end of the day could i have done things differently?

more regrets..
we are a creature of habit and most of the time i have to say i indulge my bad habit more and more.. why? because it is easy.. for i know that to do better is a harder path.. for all i know i am landed with few responsibilities that i would like to get out from and yes i am finding a way to get out of it as often as i can.. but i do not really solve my problem.. and more and more days of guilt and regret piling up.. and the crazy thing is, it made me want to avoid it even more.. and then in itself.. i formed myself to use as tiny excuse possible to escape my responsibilities.. there you go.. one bad habit is formed..

right now i feel like a broken power window that stuck in the middle, can;t go up, and can't go down.. wish life is as easy as it is. or it actually is, either u go up, or you go down.. when u stuck in the middle it usually is broken.. or its there on purpose well must be caused by a reason...

too bad... it always more complicated.... people called me i'm too paranoid, and i should have leave it all to the almighty.. i wish i could do just that.. i guess i;m just a control freak who need to have everything under his finger or going his way.. praying or no praying.. but just to be on the safe side.. grant me strength to make me go further and escape my weaknesses... grant patience to make me able to realize that everything needs time, and grant wisdom so i can weight every side and make the best of the situation.. the last thing.. guide me so i will not stray away far from You..

on the other side.. fix me when i;m stuck in the middle and broke down like my power window this morning... amen

I am who I am.. I just have to be better... damn it why it's so freaking hard.... then again.. when was the last time life wasn't hard anyway..... sometimes i would just like to give real life a kick in the gut... for throwing bricks at me...