"the now" situation..

Have you ever feel that you are content

carry yourself happily around thinking life is alright

Knowing it can be better but so what? you can live with "the now" situation..

Then...

You realized that you are nowhere near happy

you realized that you don't belong anywhere..

you realized that you are probably the most delusional person in the whole world..

asking.. you have everything that everyone looking for, but no one to share it with..

wondering that you are deemed the nicest person that your friends ever know..

but yet.. you can't say the same to anyone in your friend list..

Knowing that people are comfortable around you but you are not comfortable around them?

Knowing that the person that you actually interested in, has no more interest in you than friendship...

Knowing that you can win the best friend of the year award, but not going to even make it to the acceptable boyfriend category..

and in the end.. you realized that you have nothing to call home..

then it hits you... OH SHIT! I am alone...

and maybe you try to deny it... but somewhere deep down your consciousness you know for sure that the happiness that you are looking for, is a VERY "questionable outcome"